Welcome to Beloved Mess; a safe place for sinners who long for relatable, gospel-saturated, grace-washed articles and resources. Whether you are looking to find Christ in your chaos or to be showered with God's love for you in the midst of your mess, you have come to the right place. This is a place of freedom, a place in which I refuse to write pretty, flowery phrases that make me look like the lovely that I am not. Anything you read here is an outpouring of what I am struggling through as a writer, mother of four, wife, impatient member of the church, and deeply flawed, yet deeply loved, human being. My writing is a narrative theology of my life; a collision of what I know to be gloriously true about the risen Savior and what I know to be painfully true about my own humanity.
Things are real here. Maybe a little too real, like the time I told my readers that God had walked out on me and I was done with Christianity. And for times like that (and my many grammar mistakes), I hope you will have some grace for me. I am nothing more than a fellow sainted sinner living between the already and the not yet, longing for the day that I will be fully understood, feel totally loved, and will never be taken too seriously. I hope that the sharing of my humanity on these pages will give you the much needed permission to be human yourself, for we are all loved as we are, not as we should be.
"My only desire is to make these words reverberate in every corner of your being—'You are the Beloved.'" -Henri Nouwen
Real life is only ever just real life. Messy. What it means depends on how you look at it. The only thing you’ve got to do is find a way to live there.
With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ’s being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.
Romans 8:1-2 MSG